5. Change is Coming


It really does feel like forever since I have written a journal post. I've sadly been neglecting this part of my webpage for too long and so I just wanted to take the time out and share with you guys whats been going on with me. 

So for the past two weeks I have been dealing with some things as far as work goes. I recently lost a young lady that I worked for and it saddens me that this world has lost such a precious, generous and beautiful soul.

Ever since this drastic turn of event has taken place I have been stressed about what my next move will be. but at the same time I don't want to stress myself out, so I have been keeping a positive outlook and keeping my spirits lifted by continuing to do things to help me get through this situation. Being able to work is of course always my top priority, and I didn't make a load of money while working with this lady; but I was content with it. Which in hinesight wasn't really good for me, because it didn't help me strive and reach for better things for myself. All it did was make me stay at the dream,hope and pray that it falls into my lap stage.  Now that this has happened it really has me thinking in a different manner, that I really should buckle down and do more for myself this time around. I've even started to wonder if this was a way of the universe  showing me that this was not the time to settle and become comfortable. I always wanted more for myself but I always had the tendency to not push myself and to become quit lazy when it came to having to do something outside of my comfort zone. I'm kinda scared about having to straighten up my life but I'm looking forward to it at the same time. I want to actively pursue things that challenge me, help me grow and also help me become financially stable as a woman. I'm looking forward to it and I hope that with prayer and positive thinking and active pursuit something will come my way and Lord I hope quickly haha. 

peace + Love

Caroyn Lorraine



May 31,2017